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Hello, my name is Olivine. I'm a priest of the God of Klein, and I enjoy helping others in my free time. I'm also a healer, so if you ever find yourself in need, please don't hesitate to seek me out for assistance or conversation or both.
I like to think myself quite easy to get along with, and I'm happy to make friends and acquaintances. I've been told I can be a little too optimistic sometimes, but I can't really help it. Ah, and I've been working on myself of late to become more self-confident, with the help of others around me.
For the moment, I'm just looking to make connections. If I can, I'd also like to find something to do with myself—I have experience with several creative endeavours.
I may not be able to offer much now, but I hope to become more helpful in the future. Please bear with me in the interim.
As I mentioned before, I'm a healer and a priest. I also know a fair bit of magic, at least how it works in my own world. On top of that, I enjoy painting and writing.
I have a penchant for trying new things, even when they may seem strange. I'm quite... resilient, when it comes to that.
Oh, I don't know. I like a lot of fantasy books, especially ones with intrigue and romance in them, as well as tomes and history books. I also quite enjoy church music, though... I suppose I just like music in general. Things that are pleasant to listen to and soothe the heart.
I haven't gotten a chance to experience much in the way of food, personally. I do love home-cooked meals and fresh breads, things that are flavourful and comforting.
Well... I think my ideal partner would be someone strong-willed, confident, and warm-hearted. Someone kind and understanding, who can accept me as I am.
Mm... and it wouldn't hurt if he was someone playful and a bit rough. I like it when I'm taken by surprise, in all senses of the word, by someone I trust. Of course... it's also best if they can handle a little playfulness in return.
WINE
.02 CLOWNS OR MIMES
CLOWNS
.03 SHOWER OR BATH
BATH
.04 PIRATES OR NINJAS
PIRATES
.05 TITS OR ASS
TITS
.06 COFFEE OR TEA
TEA
.07 SPICY OR SWEET
SWEET
.08 SUMMER OR WINTER
SUMMER
.09 LEATHER OR LACE
LACE
10. ROUGH SEX OR GENTLE SEX
ROUGH SEX
ENFJ-T
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You've nothing to apologise for. It isn't that I'm any better at it than you, but... mm. Perhaps more that it's my interpretation of what I've seen. There are so many ways to live our short lives, and most of them need no change to begin with... but in my experience, it can be difficult to change even when the rhetoric you're brought up on is proven... questionable, if not false.
[He hides it better than some things, but there's a touch of guilt there in his own right.]
And when it's a collective change to the morals of society, requiring a number of people to change how they act and explain the world, that would take even longer, don't you think? It happens so slowly that we may not even notice it's changing.
[Olivine blinks as Neuvillette explains—praises him so, and he can't help but smile a little shyly in it. Really, he has too much faith, he thinks...]
I do try to do that... but it would be different if I were in a different position, I think. [The church is...] There is more than just the moral standard of one person to consider, after all. There are doctrines and standards to think of, alliances and treaties that can affect the judgment of one person. It's too much for me.
[He's too soft to be the one person making decisions that affect the whole world. But he smiles more broadly then at the question.]
Mmm... do bear in mind that this is just my personal philosophy—if you're speaking in terms of the church the actual rules are fairly vague. A priest's actual duties are simply to help keep the faithful from straying too far from their path, and to uphold the teachings of our God so that they may live in comfort and grace.
For me... that takes many forms. The relief and comfort of helping someone carry heavy goods they wouldn't be able to, the excitement of children as they grow and learn. Seeing someone smile for the first time because they faced their fears or repaired relationships after what they thought were world-ending arguments. I suppose... in the simplest terms, I help others carry those burdens by taking the time to understand them and what may be done about them. Whatever form they take, I find it exceedingly rare that a burden is meant for one person alone.
[He wonders if it's a little naive, sometimes, but it's hard to argue with how much he's grown since he met Eiden and the other clan members. And he pauses then, cheeks reddening at the realisation of just how long he'd been going on.]
Sorry... that got a little long-winded for a fairly broad explanation, didn't it?
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Y-es, yes, that does follow that more people would take longer to change... [He still doesn't seem positive. Luckily, Olivine comes to his rescue by going back to trials and punishment.]
I understand that your courts are informal, but I believe it's important that the law and justice should be above alliances and treaties. All men are equal under the law. At least, it is so in Fontaine and it has served us well.
But I do acknowledge the situation you and the Water Territory find yourselves in is quite different.
[He is deeply curious about these 'burdens' Olivine claims to help with but he's unsure if he has any better understanding of what he meant. It seemed to cover... anything?]
No need for an apology. I would prefer a detailed response, however, I still find it unclear. It sounds as though the burden could be... anything? Something physical or completely intangible. Surely, there must be a limit to the problems you might solve.
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[it's not that he can't see the discomfort and uncertainty there, but... well, it's different from person to person, isn't it? and he'll admit quite freely that his idealism comes from a place of privilege, of relative peace.]
Oh! Well... certainly, there are problems I cannot solve, yes. I don't have endless funds to help those who need it, for example... but whatever problems I can solve, I want to. [laughing softly, he sets his utensils down for a moment.] I think, perhaps, your confusion is in the difference between hearing a burden and being able to solve it. We're not required to solve any specific problems, and those who speak with us know that. There's always a chance that we'll have to decline assisting in some cases.
We're only human, after all. Sorry that I can't give more clarity, but I'm not sure what more I would say. I most often take confessions or lead mass, and help with things like carrying supplies to the church and around the city. I also write children's books and create gifts for them for the holidays. Ah... and sometimes I help with teaching them to read.
[it really is just kind of... anything, isn't it.]
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[Neuvillette listens keenly as Olivine explains further, seeming to hang on every word.]
You aren't required... but you do try. [He looks to the side, eyes moving as he thinks for a moment.] Do you... have regrets? Do you feel guilty if you're unable to help someone?
[He doesn't realize how the deep question might be upsetting. His expression shifts subtly into a hint of a smile.] Reading to children, that's quite a noble endeavor and no doubt quite rewarding.
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I do. [his questions earn a softer smile, and he has to wonder what kind of life Neuvillette has led thus far, being so distant from something he finds so natural. actually, he reminds Olivine a little of Blade, struggling to learn how humans work (let alone how his own emotions do) without any assistance at all.] And... I do regret when I can't help someone, but it feels like I "should" be able to. It's easy to do, when you think back on how you could have allocated your resources to better help more people. But guilt isn't a part of it. Guilt is a heavy thing to bear, the knowledge that you had the ability to help someone, but chose not to. We cannot spend our lives wondering how much of our resources we should reserve, just in case something else comes up; it's far more rare that a change would have allowed more assistance than it is that you could never have been able at all.
Moreover... we have no control over someone else. I can offer everything someone needs, but if they're not ready to take the steps to use it, no amount of assistance will solve the problem. Those people... I feel sorrow for, and I hope that their hearts and God will guide them to their wishes in the future.
[that soft expression turns into something rather akin to a beaming smile, warm and kind.] Yes, it is rewarding. I don't know whether it's noble, but it makes me feel happy and that's enough for me. Many of our young children have no one to teach them otherwise, whether their parents are working or passed from some tragedy, but all deserve the same opportunities and respect, I think.
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I see. A difference between guilt and regret... I've never heard that, about guilt. About it being a choice. [It makes sense. Where the law is concerned, a guilty verdict takes intent into account.] Thank you for that explanation.
It's also true that no one can force someone else to accept help. One can only try.
[Neuvillette's expression softens as well, even if he is still mulling over what Olivine's said. Even so, it's difficult not to be positively affected by such a warm smile.] I think it's quite noble and your approach sounds very beneficial. It's unfortunate for the Water Territories that you're stuck here. It must be quite a loss. I worry for my own home as well in my absence.
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I suppose it probably depends on your outlook, as well. Guilt is a complex subject, after all. But you're welcome.
[he doesn't seem bothered by how seriously the Fontainian takes everything; it feels a little like he recalls Eiden being when he'd first arrived, trying to understand everything about the world he'd wound up in.
the shift in Olivine's expression is small when Neuvillette mentions the Water Territory, underlining the worries he's had in turn. he knows there's no shortage of competent people in the church, plus Yakumo is still there... but even so.]
It's... a little difficult to accept, under the circumstances. To go from helping rebuild our city to this, and to know that I've left the other clan members behind as well... but I trust them fully. [he exhales a sigh, head shaking.] I'm sure it must be the same for you, though it occurs to me that I haven't asked what it is that you do in Fontaine.
[there's something... delicately authoritative about him, even separate from his normal attire; maybe it's just the way that Neuvillette speaks, vaguely reminiscent of nobility as the priest understands it. he can't be sure.]
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Indeed. The timing is quite inopportune. [A huge understatement.]
I'm iudex - chief justice. And, after some very recent events... archon as well. There is an extensive system in place in Fontaine, but I preside over most trials... I fear my sudden disappearance will not go over well.
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But he quiets again, listening to Neuvillette's woes and worries. The chief justice... and archon? That prompts a pause, a mild interruption.]
Archon...? Sorry, [He gives a sheepish laugh] I can't say I've ever heard of that before. The rest I think I understand... I truly hope that things are... able to work out on their own, while you're here. It's no wonder you're worried.
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I'm unsure what might occur in my absence. When an Archon dies, another usually rises to take their place, but I'm unsure what would occur in a situation like this.
[And so soon after Furina was denounced as the Archon. He can only hope that Fontaine is not in too much turmoil.]
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it isn't as utterly world-shaking as it might have been if he'd been here without at least a vague acceptance of the concept of other worlds, but he's—still surprised. not just by the explanation, but by the implication. "after some recent events," so he was... not that before? and to admit it so casually to a stranger, even if it's not exactly a guarded secret for their regions... apparently.]
... I can hardly imagine the concern you must be feeling. [it's a little gravely spoken, brows furrowing.] Even knowing that there's little we can do to fix it, I don't know that I could remain so calm, in your shoes. Forgive me, I... find myself at a loss for what else to say, haha.
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He hums thoughtfully at Olivine's assessment, frowning slightly.]
As you've noted, there's little to be done. Being panicked or agitated wouldn't benefit anyone, least of all me and it would change nothing.
I apologize. It must be quite a lot to process. I appreciate you lending an ear regardless,
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You're right, of course... but rationally understanding that fact doesn't always make it easy to remain calm. I simply admire that.
Mm, not at all. It is my duty as a priest to hear the woes of the people, and... ah. Admittedly, it's something that helps me to maintain my own composure, even under such duress. I can't pretend to understand it all, of course, but my ear is always available.
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I've observed as much in others, you're correct. [Perhaps, at some point, they will have a conversation regarding strong emotions and how odd Neuvillette finds them, but he opts not to share so much so soon.]
I have to think there are others who have also recently arrived who desire to find a way home. Perhaps between all of us, we can solve this puzzle.
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I'd hope it's correct... the idea of being the only one to feel that way would be too sad, don't you think? [maybe he hadn't said as much, that it was also his space in the world, but it makes sense enough. Olivine is grounded, until he isn't. there's a lot there, teeming just below the surface.]
Exactly. I think... even if we're stuck dealing with the circumstance right now, most of us have something worth going home for. And people tend to band together over a similar goal, so I'm sure we'll figure it out eventually.
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[If humans were less emotional and dramatic, it may actually be an improvement. Or maybe it wouldn't... He had become quite fond of humans and their oddities.]
Agreed.
This place... it reminds of... well, I'm not sure what to call it. Spaces outside of the normal plane of existence. But there is usually some reason why one has found oneself there and a specific way to exit.
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[he's definitely sensitive, at least. Neuvillette reminds him a little of Rei, he thinks—reasonable, pragmatic. a lot less brusque, but still. in any case, at least by now the remainder of their food is gone, and Olivine's hands come to rest in his lap while they continue to speak.]
Spaces outside of normal existence... I've only heard of it as a distant theory in magical texts, admittedly. But it does seem reasonable, considering how many people were brought here from everywhere.