[you don't get to decide that for him, Rei. it's truly futile, and at least he knows that... and Olivine has a feeling it's hard for him to accept right now. still, it felt important to say, because the other man really has been a comfort to him, a bright spot in this space, let alone back home.

the question has him pausing from his own bites, cheeks darkening as they are so wont to do.]

... yes, he was my first with a real person. [toys were different, right? right.] I didn't know anyone that I could... trust with that side of me, before him. Even then, I was afraid he would judge me for the desires I hated, but couldn't will away.

I was so timid back then... I still remember how red I got when he made me say I wanted his cock the first time. It felt so embarrassing.