[they both know he isn't stupid enough to think Rei will tell him about every experiment. his stint stuck in the broken wing says enough about that. but otherwise, he knows just how resilient Olivine is and what he likes, more now than before really.
and Rei, that's the difference: he actually liked reading those texts. and everything else. the priest gives the pot a stir, pausing briefly at the question.]
Ah... no, not really. [which comment does that answer? both.] My parents are very strict, but I know they're doing their best. And really, it was all I knew, growing up. Lessons at home, and then at the academy, bolstered with my reading about the world.
If anyone is to blame, it's me for not realising I could have had something else. Before I became a priest—before I met Eiden, really—I was afraid to do anything wrong, even while I kept making mistakes. I didn't think it was possible to be the way that I am and also be a worthwhile priest, and the latter always came first, even when I hated it.
[the last bit is almost a murmur, quiet and withdrawn. Rei is one of the clan members and he doesn't care for the church anyway, but just saying aloud that he hated being a priest at any point still feels sacrilegious.]
actually I should probably add cw: shitty parents/religious backstory time
[they both know he isn't stupid enough to think Rei will tell him about every experiment. his stint stuck in the broken wing says enough about that. but otherwise, he knows just how resilient Olivine is and what he likes, more now than before really.
and Rei, that's the difference: he actually liked reading those texts. and everything else. the priest gives the pot a stir, pausing briefly at the question.]
Ah... no, not really. [which comment does that answer? both.] My parents are very strict, but I know they're doing their best. And really, it was all I knew, growing up. Lessons at home, and then at the academy, bolstered with my reading about the world.
If anyone is to blame, it's me for not realising I could have had something else. Before I became a priest—before I met Eiden, really—I was afraid to do anything wrong, even while I kept making mistakes. I didn't think it was possible to be the way that I am and also be a worthwhile priest, and the latter always came first, even when I hated it.
[the last bit is almost a murmur, quiet and withdrawn. Rei is one of the clan members and he doesn't care for the church anyway, but just saying aloud that he hated being a priest at any point still feels sacrilegious.]